BeautifulHistoria

I get ahead of myself far too fast. I see what I want to be able to do - and I run before I’ve learned how to crawl.

The good news? I’m exhausted. I once told my sister in law that my goal was to be exhausted by the end of the day - she looked at me like I was crazy (which I might be.. But I actually thought it was a good idea) and said “why!?”

I looked right back and said “because then I’ll feel like I accomplished something that day - and when I work hard throughout the day I sleep better, feel better about myself as a person and don’t worry what my purpose in life is” not that I’m trying to avoid anything by working it out of myself - only that I REALLY REALLY enjoy being at the end of the day knowing I did good day's work. There’s just something so rewarding in knowing I worked hard that day.

Well, I’ve had three exhausting days in a row now. I haven’t done a whole lot of anything different, only tried to add one thing to every day: painting.

Though I must say, I wouldn’t have been able to do it without God. I PROMISE!! Being a mom is busy enough, why try to add anything else to my day!? I already feel exhausted!! It’s because creating something makes me feel SO GOOD!

Do you ever remember being a child and your parents would give you a certain amount of play time - whether it’s at the park, a friends house or simply being outside of the house. I remember thinking those play times NEVER felt long enough. Time would always seem to go buy so fast: hence the saying “time flies when you're having fun.” That’s how I feel when I paint. At times it’s chore, but one that I love and can never get enough of.

Thankfully Along with trying to do a daily painting (or as the case is right now: do something everyday that deals with art.. Because, let's face it - I have a lot to do before I’m ready to actually start) I also recommitted myself to God. My dad was a big proponent of how “putting God first makes everything else fit into your day” and I know it’s true.. I just forget to put forth the action some days. Well, yesterday I felt like I did pretty good job of putting God first. I didn’t necessarily DO anything different - I just focused my thoughts more toward him. Because I did that I received some amazing inspiration for my church duties on sunday - as well found even more time than I had planned on to paint. I thought I might be able to get in an hour or two of paint time yesterday during J’s nap time (J is my little girl about 2 years old right now) but she actually slept for three.. For those mom’s out their you know what I mean when I say THAT’S A BIG DEAL! And extra hour of nap time, wow - that DOES NOT HAPPEN, EVER!!

It’s was great!

But boy I”m exhausted. guess I’ll sleep well. What a soothing thought to lay on my pillow tonight.